Wednesday, 15 April 2015

Happiness At The Expense Of Others

I have never been the type of person to label others as "good nor evil." But, I think I am justified to say that there are certain people who hold the belief that they are above everyone else; and that, to me, is a kind of evil, in itself.

I was a very empathetic child. Apparently when I was around four to five years old, I told my parents not to kill a bug because "a bug's life is also a life". Growing up in a kind of household which had unrealistic expectations placed on me-I was taught to be selfless and think nothing of myself. That combined with my natural oversensitivity made me develop a ridiculous amount of empathy and consideration for others. It became a second-nature  to think about the consequence of every one of my actions and how it would impact others. For instance, if I vacuumed at 2pm, how would that impact my neighbours? Even in my dreams, when I was angry, if I hurt someone, I would feel the pain back. However, in order to empathise with others though, we have to put ourselves in their shoes to understand how they feel. That requires we assume that they would react or behave like us, in certain situations. The bottom line assumption is that other people are identical mirrors to ourselves, and thus they are "just" like us. But the reality is, individuals are fundamentally different. Just because we have consideration for others, does not mean they will return it

Many of the experiences in the past few years has taught me that the there are a lot of people who are careless, and simply do not have an innate sense of consideration for others. They simply don't care how you feel, unless it directly affects them. They hold this sense of entitlement; that they can do whatever they want, with complete disregard for others. The gain at the expense of others, and somehow think that it is okay. The entire mindset is just so absurd and beyond my comprehension.

North America is shaped by liberalism-our ideas of equality, fairness, and entitlement to the same rights. However, I think it is also this kind of culture that breeds a mass of entitled beings who abuses these rights, and takes the very notion of freedom and equality that we hold, for granted. There are intrastate wars going on in other parts of the world, fighting for the same freedom that these "entitled, careless people" take for granted because they've never had to experience that kind of oppression and injustice. They were born into privilege.

I am outraged at the injustices that exist today. I am outraged at the mass of "careless" creatures making messes in other people's lives and not receiving retribution for it. I am outraged that natural selection is dead, and idiots multiply at ridiculous rates.
More than anything, I seek change.

Sunday, 19 October 2014

The Absurdity of People

I am so tired and fed up of dealing with selfish, disgustingly inconsiderate and irresponsible people who need to seriously be shot for their invalid absurdity. More specifically, I am fed up with digustingly greedy landlords who own homes, rent them out, and yet expect the tenant to live like a mouse.

When I was looking at this house, I was told that it would be a quiet, studious place. When I moved in, I found out the soundproofing was horrid, and that I could hear people every time they walk. On my first day, the landlady was careful, so I thought you know, at least she's considerate, and careful not to make more noise than necessary and I thought I could tone out the noise with the sound of my fan. It turns out that wasn't the case. Since the landlady was generally respectful in terms of clearing space and helping me out, I thought at least she's considerate.

After I gave her the first and last month's rent, however, her entire personality changed. Suddenly, she and her husband were making loud calls in the floor below me, in the completely open, meaning I could hear everything! :D So I asked her to be careful, and she stopped. I endured about two weeks of this, and at first it was bearable but after awhile the constant footfalling on the stairs that constantly woke me up really began to get on my nerves! I kept it in for so long because I was grateful to them for helping me move, but after while I just got tired of the lack of consideration in noticing how the husband stomps like a fucking elephant when I'm sleeping but careful when his wife is!

I guess I'm taking it too personally, since it shows more about their character-that they were rude, disrespectful people or even their culture/upbringing than it is anything about me. The husband finally had it, got annoyed at me complaining and told me maybe I should find a new place.

At first  I wasn't sure what to respond, then realized that I really did not want to move again. Okay here is there thing-if you promised me a quiet place than you should follow up with it, and not get annoyed when I complain about the bloody noise since you misled me!

For god's sake, have some consideration for other people around you! Just because it is your home does not mean you can whatever you want! If that is how you want to live, you should never be sharing/renting your home at all! Instead of treating your tenant like an inconvenience for disrupting your lifestyle when they are paying you!

Thursday, 14 August 2014

Careless and Apathetic Creatures

The upstairs elephant prancing on your ceiling-his constant footfalls like a hammer being drilled into your ceiling 24/7. Combined with his inability to close a single door properly, the elephant is a force to be reckon with! From the moment he awakens, until the time he enters the world of dreams, he brings about the proclamation of his presence, as though to remind the world the grandness of his toxic existence!  For as long as the elephant breathes and walks, the resident downstairs will not breathe a single moment of peace! Someday, a circle of elephant hunters will arise and destroy these despicable creatures!

The sheep sitting comfortably behind the counter, snapping away on her new cell phone.  She is too busy posting selfies to mind those busy customers awaiting her attention. She does put on a show of effort though. An unhelpful silence here and there, a babble of misinformation, a rehearsal of obvious, and irrelevant facts. She's being paid for her precious time, not the quality of her customer service. Why should she care or even make an effort?

So what do these two creatures have in common? From the financial aid employee at your college full of misinformation, the ignorant professor, too egotistic to ever make "any" mistakes, to the greedy landlord who's primary concern is taking advantage of students and fishing their pockets for more profit? They lurk everywhere in our society, grow and spread like a plague! The prevalent attribute they all posses is their apathetic attitude when society allows them to not be held accountable for their actions.

I took the the Shuttle service at my University today, and was astonished by the rudeness and obscenity I suffered. The Shuttle service is a transportation service run by the University to support students living off campus, who do not have their owns means of transportation. I arrived last second and was about to sign up with the coordinator, but she simply dismissed me, saying how I should have signed up prior to the arrival of the Shuttle vehicle. Now here is the thing. The sign up procedure was simply my student identification number and the major intersection I needed to be dropped off. Hence, it is a simple procedure, easy to accommodate, even last minute. However, instead of signing me up, the coordinator was playfully arguing with her co-worker on who would drive the shuttle. She chose to dismiss me and avoid what would have been a two second procedure. Her decision resulted in me having to wait another hour for the next Shuttle.
Needless to say, I was not happy.

It is important to note that this was not a volunteer service, it is funded by a portion of our tuition. As such, these coordinators were student employees being paid. Therefore, I would expect a certain level of responsibility and quality of customer service. I was outraged by her attitude. It wasn't so much about that one specific incident, more so that the attitude displayed, mirrored so many others that I had to deal with in the past. The attitude which resulted from the lack of responsibility; one of carelessness and apathy. I sent an e-mail to her manager, hoping some sort of accountability would take place.

Injuries resulting from another's negligence and carelessness is the same as injuries suffered from one's intent to hurt. The end result is the same. If more people were held accountable for their actions the world would be a much better place. The attitude of carelessness and disregard of one's actions on others is despicable and toxic parasites like those, are much better off gone. I await the day when judgement unfolds, and karma punishes those who impart injustices on other people's lives, however great or small. In the meantime, I shall conclude with a quote from Fitzgerald "Great Gatsby"

They were careless people, Tom and Daisy--they smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back to their money or their vast carelessness, or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the mess they had made...

Wednesday, 7 May 2014

Can Justice Exist Without Retribution?

I have this awesome, incredible housemate. Every time he walks out of his fucking room, he is LOUD as fuck that I can hear him in MY room-he slams the freaking fridge door, he slams the main fucking door! For a girl with high anxiety levels, I have to deal with this every day-every fucking time he walks out of his fucking room! It is LOUD as fuck!

He does not clean up after himself. Even when he's not home, you can see trace of his mess and his garbage in the fucking living room every single fucking day! He has zero respect for other people's property and just uses them whenever he feels like it; and downright lies about it when questioned to the point where I'm super paranoid now and hiding ALL my stuff! Every time he uses the fucking kitchen, he does not know how to turn the small mini fan on and it all goes into our room!

And when I confront him about it; he either denies that the mess is his, get annoyed when HE'S the one who wouldn't clean up after HIMSELF! Why do motherfuckrs like that exist? Every time he is home, I'm in a horrendous mood and I just wanna stab something! I HATE HIM SO MUCH! WHY CAN'T HE DIE! 5 months of toleration him has pretty much driven me up the wall and I am so numb and depressed and SO SO STRESSED! OMG e-e I wanna screeeam!

And the worse part is HOW UNFAIR this whole fucking situation is!!!! HE IS THE ONE WHO DESERVES TO FUCKING DIE!?!?!! WHYYY AM I SUFFERING FOR IT?!?! WHAT KINDA JUSTICE IS THIS?!

Today, in class, we saw a documentary on the Holocaust. It was very, very gruesome, even though it wasn't my fist time seeing or hearing about the horrors of the Holocaust. At the end of the film, the Kappa were arrested and denied any responsibility or involvement in the incident. I can not believe the absurdity; especially since I have met so many people who cannot own up to what they have done and accept the consequences! The narrator ends the film with the question "Who is responsible?"

The video made me very emotional, very angry. We all know that the Holocaust happened because the majority of people refused to do something about it, since it didn't involve them directly.

This poem would describe the mindset of these sheep perfectly. The poem is written by Martin Niemöller, a prominent Protestant who spent seven years of his life in concentration camps because spoke out publicly against Adolf Hitler. I applaud his courage and strength of character. I think this poem inspires a lot of us to step out of the shadows and speak up for ourselves.

First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out-- 
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out-- 
Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me--and there was no one left to speak for me.

This type of mindset disgusts me, and hits a very personal place since I have experienced so many injustices where I was part of the minority group and everyone else was either too passive or apathetic to stand up and speak for themselves! I am disgusted by that type of mindset where people are willing to stand by and watch injustices happen, as long as it doesn't affect them directly!

Someone in my class asked the purpose of the video-why make us remember such gruesome things? I got really emotional and angry; I supposed, mostly by her ignorance. The Holocaust wasn't a tragic incident created by "someone else" like a hurricane or a natural disaster, it could have been prevented! Everyone who was involved was equally responsible!

Why is there so much injustice in this world? Why are there so much sheep who simply follow the flock instead of challenging the status quo?! Why does our education system teach us what to think as opposed to how to think? There is something very, very, wrong with the world today.

Also, I'm Asian, so none of my direct ancestors were physically affected by the Holocaust. It is simply the mindset which allowed such a mass and tragic genocide to occur that disgusts me, along with the injustice and I see patterns of this behaviour everywhere today.

Instead of asking for world peace or a world without conflicts, I would much rather have a just world; where people are forced to accept the consequences and retributions for their actions!

Sunday, 2 February 2014